‘Dr Faezah has informed me about your thesis and i have been waiting for your call’. said Dr J.
I felt shame of myself for being lazy and procrastinated. I don’t know what words to choose to express my thankfulness to him for agreeing to accept me as his supervisee. I told him that this would be the last chance for me to finish my thesis and this would be my seventh and last semester. I told him to come by the end of this month. He said, it depended on me whether he would go down to KT or I would go up to Kuantan. I stressed once again that after collecting materials and doing some reading about the topic i would go and see him at Kuantan late this month. He is a very helpful supervisor and hopefully he will be of a great help for me to finish my thesis. I can’t wait to finish the thesis as i plan to apply for PhD this year. If things go as planned, by the end of this year i have already had two masters and a bachelor. This enables me to apply for part time lecture at any private or public educational institution. But, that does not fire me much as much as my wish to finish my thesis and me end up having Master in tesl. By the age of 35, i have already finished my master. And everything will start from today, and the moment i start there would be no turning back. i must at whatever circumstances allocate at least two hours to work on my thesis. Failing to abide by this self-imposed resolution would cost me dearly as i had since spent up to 20 thousand for the fee and transportations.
When or what time should i spare time for studying or doing the thesis? I must make it a routine and stick to it till i submitted my final short desertation. So, the question is when? 10 to 12 pm will do except on nights where the most anticipated games are on the tube. Or two hours is not enough. Better give a try first to dream to do something big is no as easy to saying it.
The most important thing is i have to record. Everything starting from a call or other things related to working out the thesis must be categorically and systematically recorded.
Why i must put my target and plans into words. I believe it is better than to let it linger in my mind which will dissipate over time. At least i feel ashamed of myself for cheating my own self. And nothing is more unfortunate than to have cheated ourselves. This signifies that we cheat the most important person ever live in this world.
I told Dr J that i am now collecting materials related to the topic. I am sure he knew that i told he lies. But, he as a professionally trained prefesor was more than familiar to handle the situation like that. He seemed strongly hold a principle of waiting which sounds success will come to those who wait. He in a position to answer my call not to make a call. This to show that a student is more committed and serious not his supervisor or professor who goes overboard.
Dr J, I promise by today onwards, i will on constant basis work out the thesis till the day i submit the binded one. And the rest is history.
Then, i can give my all to improving my students preparing for PMR this year. In addition, this year will be tougher as the school aims to produce a few students getting straight As. Last two years, the school has not produced even a single student getting straight As. For me, being able to share skills and knowledge is far more beneficial as students would be able to apply it later when they enter form 2.
